watching what's happening at home makes me quite sad really. maybe  cuz its the first time i feel affected by the political turmoil. probably the ones who lived thru May 13 etc arent as surprised, but for me im actually finding all this quite scary. what is going to happen? how is it all going to get resolved? is there even an answer?

it doesnt help that i feel like an isolated spectator since im away in sg (i know la its not that far, but away from home means away from home, even if its near!). everyday i go through the same blogs religiously, ie. chedet, rantings by mm, malaysiakini (i wonder why only the malay version is free?), malaysia today and then some. blogs have long replaced newspapers as my source of information. when u live in this part of the world, newsapapers = goverment mouthpiece. and everyday i read, it gets worse&worse. the politicking keeps outdoing itself!

its easy enough to remain isolated i suppose. the older folks say 'find a job elsewhere and stay there'. and honestly, ive never planned to return and work in KL. why would i when what im getting here for a 3-month internship is equivalent to what a friend of mine gets full time back home (and she's a grad from Monash Australia!). i probably wouldnt even be able to afford petrol for my car!

but i digress, whilst i never intended to make my money in msia, it will always be home. i have the best memories + i loved growing up there + the lifestyle. so i always had this plan at the back of my head that one day i would live in msia again. not soon, but some day. and i hope when that time comes, the situation wont be as uninviting as it is now.