its the end of term again, and as usual im feeling all mixed up inside. its just so bittersweet. a lot of my good friends are graduating and school life without them is just not something im looking forward to. so, already im dreading the start of the next term. even if it is still 4 months + a summer break away. i just know coming back here wont be very fulflling. most of what i look forward to when i do, wont really be there.

& im going to miss you. im sure ill see you eventually. but it wont be very often. and that will suck. for me. not very eloquent. but thats that.

but wait, shldnt i be happy re that summer break. the one thats 4 months? well i dont know. im a little bit bummed im not working. cuz hey, id like the experience, i could do with the cash, and im not cool with having to pay rent but leave my room to the dust!

but thats done now. too late for all that. so ill look fwd to home. yes, home! i usually jump and squeal at the thought of it. so why am i not now? i do have sarawak and the rainforest music festival to be happy abt. and nashreen coming back = yay! & just to waking up late, and having home cooked meals, and driving in my (sisters) car. and watching movies and chilling with the guys. that makes me happy.

but what abt when it reaches the point where i want to kill my stepmom, and when everyone gets busy again. and flies off, and when everyone has to go to work everyday. then what? and thats just it, i need to DO something over the summer. something for me. achieve sth. or just keep busy. maybe ill go visit my mom for a month in bangkok. maybe ill get reall good at rock climbing. maybe ill start a good blog.